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Lisa Sherratt's avatar

I don't know how to stop either... My youngest was four in January, her sister weaned herself when she moved into her own room at 3 years 11 months without my saying or doing anything. She only feeds night times and some mornings then sometimes randomly asks during the day for no reason at which point I immediately distract!

If you learn how I'd love to know! ❤️

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

If I figure it out, I’ll share! I’d be happy to do a morning and a night feed for as long as she wants me to… It’s the all day feeding that is starting to drain me. She still tries to feed on demand like a newborn and it can be a tad tedious when I’m trying to get stuff done for the other two kids. I was touring a preschool today for her brother and she spent the entire visit screaming at my chest and trying to hulk smash her way inside my tshirt, mortifying 😅

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Lisa Sherratt's avatar

Oh I've been there! Thing is it's so unusual for women to feed past 6-12 months that people don't expect it, so you end up feeling weird don't you? Both of mine went through phases of manic day feeding followed by my thinking it was almost done and then maybe a cold bug would strike and we'd be back to constant feeds! I know people who did night time feeds until age 5/6 and I'm not sure I want to continue that long but I can see why it makes it so much easier to get them to sleep too!

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Oh 100%, I think part of the problem is probably that it’s seen as a bit weird by everyone around me when she starts begging for milk in public now that she’s so big. When she was tiny I thought nothing of it. I try not to be affected by what others think - and am actually really lucky in that I live in an area that is really supportive of extended breastfeeding, so there are quite a few of us doing it - but I definitely felt a shift after around 12 months in how comfortable I am doing daytime feeding on demand when out and about!

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Wendy Varley's avatar

I fed my son till he was two and a half, by which time he quite liked cow’s milk. One evening, I asked if he wanted mummy milk or fridge milk and he said, ‘Fridge milk, please.’ I knew then we were done! It was mercifully decisive on his part!

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Self weaning is definitely the goal, I just wish she was a bit less demanding of it in the meantime 😅

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Wendy Varley's avatar

Yes, two of my daughters are feeding their two year olds, and I’m sure will relate! You’ve absolutely captured the ongoing dilemmas :D

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Louise Morris's avatar

My youngest is 4, and I still haven't worked this one out. Even living and working >2hours from home for more than a year didn't put her off. Still asks for 'mummy milk' on the nights we're together. It's infrequent, now. And never for very long. So I'm pretty much leaving it up to her! Feel you on the challenge of those early days though for sure. I do not miss the mastitis and the milk blisters and the leaking and the constant 'snacking'. For me though, it's the one part of parenting that has definitely got easier with time. Unlike sleep. And sass!

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

I left it up to my son to self wean and he did do it at 22 months, but he'd pretty much switched to just wanting bedtime milk from 12 months which I found manageable. My daughter is 18 months old and still wants it all day long 😅 I wish the mastitis and the leaking were just early days issues, I have oversupply issues so the two have never stopped

We have the sass too, it's unbelievable how opinionated such little people can be 😂

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Louise Morris's avatar

Bless you, it’s hard, this mothering thing. As I tell my daughter, it’s a good job she’s cute or I might have to put her in the bin (her response - stinky bin, mummy!)

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Hahaha, I love this

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Suzanne B Davis's avatar

Oh, I’m convinced all infants - and I mean ALL - are adorable is so we won’t kill them in the early days. Think of how adorable newborn puppies are, even newly hatched chickens or octopuses (octopi?) are, or a several hundred lb baby elephant is? Our brains and our hearts are configured to respond positively, emphatically, romantically to newborns. They are massively dependent, and humans are for what can feel like a lifetime in one day.

And yet, even on their worst day, they look up at you, and your heart melts. Loving, living with, and parenting child is - let’s be honest - a love/hate relationship - because your heart now walks without you and away from you. But it’s the most rewarding and stimulating job, one that simultaneously keeps you sharp and young. You’ll have to trust me on the “young” part. When you have grandchildren, you’ll understand.

My infant days are long gone. My youngest grandchild is now 6. But I remember, and I treasure.

Hang in there, mommas.

Peace🕊️

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Thank you for this comment, Suzanne, so lovely to hear your thoughts. Do you enjoy being a grandmother? I feel like I’ll love it when/if the time comes for me!

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Jothi PM's avatar

Sleeping in a wacky position and Waking up with a sore back is one reason I want to stop breastfeeding. 😂

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

That’s the biggest one for me too 😂

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Katie Donohue Tona's avatar

Hilarious and relatable 😂

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Thank you!

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Violet Carol's avatar

You’re incredible. Reading all of the breastfeeding experiences here rly turned around my perspective — I had a horrible time with my daughter and some strange part of me can’t wait to try again if my husband and I can make Baby #2. You’re a brilliant milky mother 🩵🐄

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

I had a horrible time with my first, too. The second go was so healing for me, and I’m so glad I gave it a go. Whatever you decide to do will be the right choice, though 🩵🐄

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Isabelle's avatar

Still breastfeeding my almost 4 year old. This kid blows through a flu in 24 hours- and kills a fever so quickly. I’ll do it as long as he wants it.

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

This is one of the big benefits, isn’t it! I’m actually feeding my daughter right now as I type, she’s spiking a temp and I know this will help her get better faster. I’ll likely feed for as long as she wants to, too. Well done on feeding for so long, that’s such an achievement!

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Jennifer Robertson's avatar

Everything in this article is so relatable.

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Thank you, it’s hard work sometimes isn’t it!

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Mum Guilt and Other Stories's avatar

I've just bought Jessie's Milkies to try and help persuade my three year old it's time to stop. She likes to tell me it's worked then falls apart at bedtime demanding "buboo!" 🙃

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Oh is this a new picture book for weaning? I’ve only heard of Booby Moon (which I didn’t like)

Bless her, it’s hard to let go of buboo 😅

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Mum Guilt and Other Stories's avatar

Yes, it's by Emma Pickett, bit of a choose your own adventure! Toddler has enjoyed reading and discussing it, I'd recommend it 💜

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Oh brilliant, thank you! I’ll look this up

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Lucy Jerse's avatar

Oh I love this! Thank you for the beautiful and funny vignette into your world. The other thing I’m finding myself annoyed at is not being able to wear most dresses! Like no, I’m not lifting up a whole ass dress up to my armpits that feels absurd, bordering impossible.

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Oh my gosh yes, the dresses! I used to wear dresses all the time. I’ve lived in jeans and t-shirts for almost 5 years and it’s so sad

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LysianeM's avatar

I had the same list of my phone when deciding to continue breastfeeding my first baby past the one-year-old mark... Turned out he wasn't into it anymore and never asked when I stopped offering. Don't recommend to stop cold turkey, my hormones went on a giant rollercoaster, inducing tons of big emotions, nightsweats and irritability.

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Ah that’s great that he made his own choice on the matter. I’m going to wait and let my daughter do the same, just trying to slowly reduce feeds as much as I can without upsetting her at the moment. I hear you on the hormones, they go absolutely wild don’t they!

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S // Call Me Mother's avatar

The photo of 13 day old peach is impossibly precious. Our neighbor just had a baby and, every time I hold her, I lose my mind at the miracle of a six pound potato of baby shaped love. Ugh. My ovaries.

But also: weaning. My toddler is 23 months old and will still nurse throughout the day if we are home and I attempt to sit down. If we are busy at home or out and about, she doesn’t ask as much. But, if I’m sat down she definitely is asking to nurse. And then of course at wake up and nap and bedtime and in the night if she wakes up. 😳

I’m certain I won’t stop, though. Sometimes I feel so touched out and just overwhelmed. But then, like last night after she skinned her knee and wanted only to snuggle in for a nurse, I realize that it’s an indescribable gift to be her absolute safe spot. I am her comfort. I’m worried I’ll regret it if I wean her rather than letting her choose her own timeline.

Worry that I’ll regret a mothering choice and then being paralyzed about making said choice seems to be a constant part of parenthood?? Is it just me that feels this way?

So… I guess I’m in the same spot as you. Even if I were to wean- I don’t know how haha

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Isn’t it bonkers how tiny they once were??

I’m right there with you, I know I won’t stop until she wants to stop, even though I feel totally touched out at times. Going to work on reducing the day feeds a little, I think, and let her work out the rest. Wish me luck 😂

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Alina's avatar

My older two self weaned when I was pregnant with the next, so I've got no idea how to wean baby number three. Just get pregnant again? That's sustainable, right?

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

This is my exact struggle! I can’t just have a baby every time I need to wean (can I? 😂)

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Alina's avatar

My third is so easygoing and so adored by her older brothers that having another is surprisingly tempting...

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Let me know how it goes 😂

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Kelton Wright's avatar

"I don't know how to stop" TOO TRUE

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

No-one teaches you these bits!

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Alice's avatar

I'm in the same boat, still nursing my 2.5 year old along with my 5 month old. I don't mind when it's just morning, naptime and bedtime, but lately he's been asking nonstop. It's such an emotional thing for him, it's hard to set limits without him feeling rejected. I know we have to wean eventually but I almost can't even envision it.

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Yes!! It’s the emotional thing! My daughter looks SO rejected when I say no and has this real devastated cry that just sounds so mournful. I’m absolutely happy with morning, nap and bed, but as you say the all day nonstop asking is a bit too much. I just find it really hard when I’m out in public with her trying to get a job done and she starts slapping me in the chest and screaming for milk 😂

Fingers crossed we figure out what to do soon - hang in there

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Ofifoto's avatar

I knew we were done when my boys started to bite. The first lasted longer than the second! Maybe it's time to eat more chillies?

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

Eat chillies? What’s this?

I think the issue is that I feel done but I know she doesn’t, and I can’t bring myself to take it away from her. It’s possible I’m being too soft!

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Ofifoto's avatar

Add a bit of spice to your milk!

I can imagine how you feel, and I wouldn't mind betting that she will suddenly decide one day that she doesn't want it anymore. Could be tomorrow!

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Charlotte (has) Baby Brain's avatar

This is a good idea, except that she loves spicy food, it would probably make her want it even more, haha. You’re right, I just need to hang in there. I might try reducing day feeds slowly and see how we feel from there. Fingers crossed it will make things easier for us both xo

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Ofifoto's avatar

She loves her mum x

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